june 30

boy o boy.. last night was my 3rd night in a row that i have had nightmares. before that it's been prob more then a year. i wonder what that means? know how you never die in your dreams? i think i did but then i woke up! ahhhhh hate it. anyways this morning we got up and had coffee and cereal. after hanging with mom for awhile, babs and i went to target then mott to play tennis. it was a bummer though because momo was stung by a bee and couldn't play after that. so sad. :( anyways babs went with shelton, then momo and i worked out. i then went home, made a smoothie and took a shower. currently it's taking me 12 hours to update this b.c my internet is pooping out on me. oh wells. class then who knows what's going on tonight. work tmrw. ick. lovelovleovleovleovleolove.

june 29

BABSIBABSIBABSI. well woke up in the morning on a mission.. to get ready for babs to come home! mom and i ran out to the store to stock up on healthy food.. and vegetarian goodies. morg took a ride with us and was happy to see we got her treats when we were in the store! anyways got back and set up a little closet hanging thing for babs in my room and then went to go get her.. picking up kc on the way. she is like mapquest and got us there lickitysplit no glancing at directions. after driving around the airport a bit we decided to park and go to the gate.. i was sooo excited and ancy my palms were sweating haha. anyways after a long hour she came through and it took me a sec to even recognize her! it's been TWO YEARS...she is beautiful as always but she has longer hair and was dressed so nice :). i gave her a huge hug and flowers and then we went on home. after settling in and snacking we took kc to work and said hi to the girls. we then headed to sommerset mall where we shopped for a bit and got pf changs. nom. it feels like she never left. we can sit in silence and feel totally normal. not that we have a problem finding things to talk about. thats what my mom says happens when you have a true connection with somebody. i am pleasantly surprised that the statement is true. nice to have my little best friend back.

june 28

test day. boo. well im pretty sure that i woke up with allie.. she left the i got foood worked out and studied all the way up until it was time to take the test.. hard stuff but i prepared as much as possible.. lets cross our fingers for at least a c. pathetic i know.. tough teacher makes for a tough class. beautiful sky walking out and driving home though.

june 27

well it twas a sunday.. woke up at jareds and erika had left with her chickypoos. obv everyone was feeling so good. got dropped off at home after listening to dumb and dumbereerer talk about shooting laser beams out of their heads. got some cereal and studystudy. waited for the storm a bit outside and headed to claires open house.. i am such a scrub. lol. anyways after that i studystudy then allie came over! my ferend from central for the night! good day

june 26

woke up at 6:30 with chloe from jareds for inservice! i was hypa after coffee from 711 nom. worked until 4 and was so sleepy. just been hanging shower study, erika came over and justins tonight. busy girl. lovelovelove. scratch that.. justins then to jareds boaaattttt.

june 25

woke up and played tennis instead of working out. so much fun! momma is awesome :). went to work right after and stayed until close..busy busy day at the wavepool. afterwards clo, erika, and kc went to shane and zukers! hung out then slept at jares.

june 24

woke up and did a little work out with momo. had to go to work only to do an hour and leave. that's okay though because i was super productive! i studied, and cleaned, and swept the driveway, and got jare and i dina then we put put ed, i got 2 hole in ones booooya. ;P. now i am left with my book and my notes.. and coldplay. oh yeah and morg went on a walk with me. when i go for walks for some reason my senses are at full force and again i get those feelings of so many random past experiences. going camping in the UP, cheerleading camp, going on the lake with the neighbors and it being the best thing in the world, laying out at the beach in my neighborhood watching the birds, looking up at the trees and getting that feeling of fulfillment in life that i hope to feel more often, going to my babysitters and smelling her laundry.. GByou ronnie. oh hey we found a robin egg too.

june 23

well today was the last day of "semi freedom" for awhile. woke up and drank coffee with my cereal, woke up momo. we got motivated and headed out for some errands. when we take her car she always has new books on tape that we listen to. i love them. you don't really think that it would be entertaining but it is. better then any movie b.c all you see is through your imagination. anyways while we went here and there.. haircut and bank for mom, i sat and listened to her new story queen of babble. one place we stopped was to check on the flowers mom left at the cemetery. they were doing fine, but it was kinda surreal to visit both my grandpa and great grandparents. the story of the big gravestone is that the whole immediate family is there. both the great grandparents that lived in my house and their two children. both kids were divorced and had no other significant other to be next to. on the gravestone it says "to live in hearts we leave behind is not to die." so sad, but so true. anyways on a lighter note we hit the gym and mom went to work. i watched twilight, obv. until dyl came by for class at 5 just got home at 8:30. im nervous that i won't be able to get a c in an OCC class. pathetic i know but it feels good to lay it out. my teacher has no mercy. but yeah tonight is left to again dissapointment (which should be expected) and therefore studying. maybe a couple chapters of my book b4 hitting it. work all day tmrw. boy o boy.

June 22

nice day. spent a big chunk of it laying on a towel with a book and my school notes. the sun was an amazing one. it was a nice change, momo and i went for a jog instead of the gym. we were at the west bloomfield library and had a quick 3 mile-er. the sun killed me though, soo hotttt. anyways we got back home and i headed back outdoors after helping momo make dinner. she made spaghetti and i made a salad. nom. well yeah got a good chunk of my book read and went through a pack of notes. i could think really clear today, love when that happens. anyways jared called me b.c he locked his car keys inside a company car at work, and he needed a ride. i was happy to go get heem in royal oak. lol. so we went to his casa and on the boat. his daddaddado put in palm trees again. like what. nice boat ride.. casted a few but no bite. nuts. got back and played bball/ made cookies (pancakes) and cupcakes/ watched entourage with adam.. really funny show but.. to go along with the last post, it makes women look like shit. fack. well ya so now im home and about to read my booky waiting for mom to walk in the door from work. i kinda wana run outside tmrw again... refreshing. summersummersummer.

june21

woke up.. class day sigh. i had to make up a quiz from last week that i missed, so studying was my main goal for the day. had my coffee woffy and layed outside with my notes! momo and i worked out and went to the bank.. uber fail. not only was working out a bad experience b.c i was a cranky girl but then momo got frustrated when we tried to go to the clarkston bank (a million miles away) for the 3rd time to make a cd for my bro.. and we didn't have everything we needed. anywho we stopped at the store on the way home from the gym and had a slap to the face moment. mom had been telling me about this article she was reading on girls and eating disorders. how sooo many women (everyone at least once in their lifetime) has one in some way. the article talked about how if you want to loose weight you have to do it in a "loving your body" maner. she then told me about how she was looking at a mag earlier and they were displaying stick skinny girls as beautiful. readers compare themselves to these models and are encouraged to not eat in order to look like them. this is kind of another reason why i have such negative feelings.. (put in a nice way) towards porn. those scummy girls don't realize how that makes other RESPECTABLE women feel. like we are mere objects used to pleasure men. no excuse me we are barbies.. or are spsd. to look like them, perfect. ok done with the rant. yeah so we were in the store and seriously saw walking bones. this woman looked like she was going to drop at any moment. the sight made my mom and i feel sick, and made us feel almost guilty for being petty about what we put in our mouth. thank god we haven't fallen deeply into the media's trap. uhg. anyways sooo yeah went to class and it was HARD. 15 pages of notes and 2 straight hours of lecture blow. my head killed. went to jares after with the guys to go fishing.. no luck but it was a beautiful night.

June 20th.

today is sunday and fathers day. boy o boy. welp woke up and mommy was home. i think i was anticipating jared being here when i woke up, so i couldn't sleep very well. anyways mom worked 12 hours the past 3 days and so she has been sleeping in until about 4. i let her have my room b.c of the dark shades so she took over and i headed outside. i layed in the grass with my coffee and book and listened to the birds sing. this habit im making of taking in nature everyday when i wake up, is one that i hope continues for the rest of my life. drastic i know, but it's a little bit of time to really sit back and see that petty things are not worth stressing over. the world is so much bigger then you and i... and life is so short. take it in. but yeaus. anyways jared came over and we sat in the porch with some fruit and yogurt, and of course my cereal. he left then i took a nappy. woke up when mom was heading back to work at 3. strongest person i know. she was off so kenny and i went to the store to get dad some choco and a card.. oh and lance a card as well. btw i failed to mention dad went golfing. i wasn't a bad daughter ignoring him don't worry. but chyah then we swung by and picked up chloe for lances grad party. it was nice to see everyone again. the people we knew as little girls running around the neighborhood causing mayhem. they all love us to this day. weird to think about. how much things change, and the once perfect world where adults knew all, is now put into perspective for us young adults. anyways we got to catch up with courtney and her beautiful new baby. it was so nice to hear her story and the way her baby has changed her life. love for your own child is something that only a parent can understand, something i can't wait to experience. well i can for at least 5 years. hehe. well after that i headed to lynns..( jareds moms) just because. tom.. her bf's sons and daughter came as well.. it was nice to meet them. i just remembered jareds mom called me kara.. LOL. i really didn't mind but the guys made her feel bad about it. kinda funny. anywho cramps started kicking my ass so i dropped by dylans to pick up notes from class then i came home. currently i am drugged up on pain meds to make the extreme period junk numb... prob why im writing a novel. so sorry. okay well off to more frozen grapes and my book. love love love

June 19th

woke up early in the am.. for inservice. i was kinda cranky because of the night before, but the best thing about the wavepool is the people, and how they can turn you around. Even though we were all up way to early on a saturday, just hanging and enjoying eachothers company makes us forget we are at work. well for me anyways hehe. After our timmy/ scanning practice that chloe ran.. which she did a fab job with... i took a seat in the sun until it was my time to punch in. Eventually i started a trend and everyone was catchin rays until the park opened. Surprisingly it was a slow day for awhile. I only worked until 4 which was nice because I got a chance to go to my neighbor Katie's grad party with my momo. haven't seen her in ages. Feel kinda bad that we became different people, but such is life. Anyways after that I read my book and enjoyed the afternoon on my front porch. There was a beautiful sunset (how lovely nature is) so i took morg for a walk. We ran into a neighbor with the cutest dog. Bens mom btw.. if you know her. lol. anyways when i got back i just read and stared out the window. i know it sounds creepy but it's one of my favorite things to do. When i was little i would sit on my bed and stare up at the tree in my front yard. when i do it now those exact naive feelings come back. Love when that happens. most of the time scent triggers my memory.. along with those special things i see. to be able to travel back in time even for that quick moment is right at the top of my list of the best moments in life.

june 18th

woke up and had an earrrly morning inservice! went straight from there to motts gym for a workout. i was wearing a SSP (safer sex patrol) shirt the whole time and i was surrounded by the elderly. i felt so bad. hehe anyways went home took a shower then headed over on bretts boat with erika. later on i layed out and talked about life with my mom. i love her. chloe came over and we hung in the porch then went shopping for healthy food. we ran into an old friend Katie and found out that she has a wee one on the way. what a nice, happy, beautiful girl. anyways storm came a rooollin in. so much fun. fell asleep watching golden state.

june 17th

woke up and only had 2 percent milk :( so much for my cerealllsss right? well i went on to work and when i got home it was dads birthday! we made him and cake and got chinease to celebrate. nom. he's 53 old man! hehe anyways then clo came over after i worked out, cleaned my room and my car.. and we went to jareds.. walked to the beach down the street. when we got back it was getting kinda late so jared, erika, chloe, brad and i watched the basketball game. disaster struck then i went home.

June 16

welp woke up in the morning and had coco wheats NOM. layed out in the sun until a huge spider

decided to join us on my leg. we then worked out and got chloe on the way.. we swam laps! after that bro and i went to the dentist.. had a really nice young pretty girl, wooo girl powerrr forr eriikaaa.. anyways im rushing this bc moms waiting for me but anyways we then went to work those are my little metees.. after that i went to jareds and hung out with him and the salamander he found at work :) great day.